Thursday, May 31, 2007
On another note - 4 years ago today (at 4:09 AM to be exact) Skylar made her debut into the world. She is very excited that it is her birthday and she can't wait until her party on Saturday. Of course it will be a princess party because after all she is a princess - just ask her. I will be sure to post pictures of the cake and the birthday girl blowing out all of those candles.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Isn't that how it always happens? Just when things seem to be shaping up the bottom falls out. Brian is out of town on business, and he called me this morning to tell me they were taking him to the emergency room. He was getting very dizzy and his blood pressure and heart rate were through the roof. Now this isn't really anything too new for us as we have dealt with this before but with him being out of town where there is no way for me to be by his side makes dealing with it this time a whole new ballgame.
So I just ask that you remember us in your prayers. He is supposed to fly home tomorrow, but with this turn of events who knows what will happen.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
***update*** I just got a call from the doctor's office and the results of all of my labwork was "very normal". I really like being normal.
I have still been reading The Beck Diet Solution. As I get farther into it, I can recognize several things I have done that have made my journey a success this time while I wasn't really conscious of them at the time. However, reading them has made me more conscious and has really reinforced those ideas. Everything from being accountable to a coach to tracking what I eat to simply knowing that it is OK to feel hungry at times.
Monday, May 21, 2007
Friday, May 18, 2007
While surfing the Internet reading up on everything weight watchers I found a neat little bracelet that they offer to help you track your points throughout the day. Here is a photo of the bracelet that is available through Weight Watchers.
Keeping track of your daily POINTS values has never been easier, more convenient
or less noticeable. Slip this stylish beaded bracelet on and forget the pencil
and paper! Each pearl represents 1 POINT and the silver pearl marks 5 POINTS
increments, providing an easy visual aid. Whenever you eat, move the charm the
appropriate number of pearls on the bracelet and you’re on your way!
Now of course being the crafty and thrifty (a nice way of saying cheap) person that I am, I decided to make my own bracelets. I now have six or seven in various colors and styles, and you will see me with one of them on most of the time. It has really helped me to always be aware of just how much I have eaten throughout the day.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
I know God has a plan and everything works together for his plan, but it seems here lately that so many things have been happening that are hard not to question.
Brian's cousin and close friend was diagnosed with colon cancer last week. He is only 35 years old, and he has two young boys. They did surgery yesterday and found that it had spread to his lymph nodes. The prognosis isn't good. I know that God can work miracles, but it is still hard not to wonder why this is happening. I will be praying daily for a miracle, as well as for God to give him the strength to endure, and the comfort that only God can provide.
Another friend of mine lost a cousin to cancer yesterday. He was only 40 and had only been diagnosed for seven weeks. It progressed extremely fast. He left a wife and three children. His family really needs our prayers during this time. I can't imagine how they must be feeling. They are a Christian family as well, so I pray that they receive comfort from God during this heartbreaking time.
Meanwhile, it really makes me thankful for my health as well as the health of my family. It also makes me realize how important it is to see a doctor at the first sign of anything out of the ordinary. I will be making an appointment soon just to get a checkup and I suggest that you all do the same.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Monday, May 14, 2007
I had a wonderful weekend. We went to the Traveler's game Friday night and even though we didn't stay all that long due to the lightening we had a good time. The kids enjoyed it a lot - especially Skylar. She got to play with Miss Kathy, so I don't know that either of them got to see any of the game.
Stephen got to run the bases between the two games and he really got a kick out of it. He was really wanting to catch a ball but the only time one came near us he wasn't paying attention. While we were there we met up with some of Brian's friends from work. Stephen played with their niece for most of the time we were there. He is quite the ladies man.
I had said I hoped to get a little reading done this weekend, and believe it or not I did. I finished the book Waiting for Morning by Karen Kingsbury. It was really a good story about a family touched by drunk driving. It follows the book of Lamentations. I also read some more in The Beck Diet Solution. The new tasks introduced were to always eat sitting down, to eat more slowly and mindfully, which makes perfect sense, and to find a diet coach.
I really tried to pay attention to what I was eating this weekend and take my time eating it. I had never realized how often I eat standing up. I can see where it will be helpful to pay attention to EVERY bite that goes into my mouth. As far a getting a diet coach, I already have several of those. Brian helps me to keep on track at home. At church, Tanya is always there following the same plan I am so that helps immensely. And at work there is Kathy. I guess she is my primary coach because we spend a lot of time discussing what she learns at meetings as well as sharing the ups and downs of our week. I know I would have never succeeded in keeping off the weight I have lost if it weren't for having a few people I felt accountable to.
Friday, May 11, 2007
- I want to be healthy.
- I want to feel attractive.
- I want my clothes to fit the way they should fit.
- I want to be more fit - better able to do physical activities with the kids.
- I want to have more confidence.
- I want to be in control of what I eat, rather than having my cravings control me.
- I just really want to be comfortable with my body and feel better about how I look.
So there you go - day one is done. I also went ahead with day two's task. It is to choose two diet plans. The first plan is the primary plan and the second is a backup plan just in case the first doesn't work out. That was an easy task. I know Weight Watchers Points works for me - obviously since I have been following it for four years. So that is my primary plan - just to be officially following the book my backup will be the Weight Watchers Core plan.
Tonight we are going to an Arkansas Traveler's baseball game. We got free tickets for everyone, so we are going with a bunch of people from work. It should be fun if we don't get rained on. Tomorrow I am going to a baby shower for my cousin's wife. Other than that I intend to spend the weekend relaxing - hopefully I will get a little reading done.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
I have to say I am very blessed in my job. Not only do I like the work I am doing (most of the time), but I truly like the people I work with. I have said on many occasions that working in a good Christian workplace makes all the difference in the world. I have a boss that is truly interested in hearing what I have to say. I have co-workers whom I enjoy being around. Don't get me wrong, there are days that I would like to walk out of the office and never come back, but those days are few and far between (most of them during tax season).
I have had jobs where I was anything but happy. I absolutely hated every minute of my first real job. I was an admitting clerk in the emergency room. It was low paying, high stress, and I couldn't wait to leave everyday and I dreaded going back. After that I worked in customer service at a bank. I liked the work and the people, but the bank was bought up and I was "downsized".
The next three months were spent in misery at a job that was doomed before I ever started. I never really knew what my job was there. I was supposed to be an accounting clerk, but the person that preceded me in the job left before I started, and no one there knew how to train me. The company closed not long after I left.
I went from there to what was a wonderful job - for awhile. I was the office manager for a local company that was involved in mail order. After a couple of years there I realized I was nothing more than a babysitter. I had no real authority, and I could see that I never would. I couldn't make any decisions with out running them past the business manager and the plant manager (also the business owner). I ended up being miserable there, especially after Stephen was born. The hours during the holiday season were really long - I remember one 80 hour week. That was hard to deal with when I had a young son at home.
I decided after three years there that I couldn't handle it anymore and started searching for a new job. I looked for quite a while before sending my resume to a PO box for a job that I had no idea if I could even do. That is how I ended up here and I have been here ever since - six years this coming September.
On another note - I didn't do the first task in The Beck Diet Solution last night. I will try to get to it tonight though.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Skylar has turned farmer. She spent Monday planting squash, corn, sunflowers and marigolds with my mom. I asked her if she was going to eat any of the veggies, and she quickly replied "No, they are just to look at." I bet we get her to try some before the summer is over. I just hope that her thumb is greener than mine or they won't even come up.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
It’s Tuesday, May 8th, and I’m kicking off my May Day Weight Loss Challenge hosted by Tales from the Scales (Finding that Skinny Girl One Pound at a Time). Here are the instructions from the site:
On Tuesday, May 8th, you post on your blog:
How much weight you want to lose: 11 lbs.
Your weight history: I have been overweight pretty much all of my life. At least all of it I can remember. After high school and marriage I got really big. Then after having Skylar, I learned to control my eating through weight watchers. I lost about 70 lbs in the months after she was born. I never did quite reach my goal (I would have liked to have lost another 15 pounds) and eventually gained about 10 pounds back over 3 years. In January of this year, I made up my mind to get back on track. Since then I have lost about 15 pounds and I still have 11 to go to reach my original goal.
What other goals you have for this challenge (creating activity, cutting out soda, etc.) and any weaknesses you have: While I have been exercising for the last year and a half, I would still like to be more active - I would like to do more outside activities. My weakness is overeating when a variety of food is put in front of me. Give me the proper portion and I have no problem stopping but put me at a buffet or potluck and I can't quit until I am overfull.
Report your loss/gain for that week on Tuesday.
I think I’d like to try this. How about you? It would give us a lot to share about, wouldn’t it? And we could encourage each other through the inevitable plateaus.
Monday, May 07, 2007
I went to a family reunion Saturday. I wasn't really in the mood considering my lack of sleep, but I did enjoy getting to see some cousins that I haven't visited with in a while. It was also a boost to my ego because several people that had not seen me in several years had to ask who I was. They couldn't believe how much weight I had lost. That was definitely an nsv for me.
Friday, May 04, 2007
It's a big change from the before picture. I don't know how long it will take me to get used to seeing myself as anything but fat. It has been almost 4 years since I started losing weight and I have been within 15 pounds of my goal for the better part of 3 years, but I still see myself as bigger than I am. It is wierd because I didn't see myself as big as as I was when I was fat - if that makes any sense at all.
On another note, tonight is the annual Relay for Life in Morrilton. I will spend most of the night at the football field raising money for the American Cancer Society. I am looking forward to spending time with some friends, and raising some money for a good cause.
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Friday, Brian, Skylar and I went on a field trip to the Little Rock Zoo with Stephen's school. It was a wild day. There were probably 20-30 other schools there visiting that day, so needless to say it was a bit crowded. And after what seems like years of construction and renovations on that zoo, there are still many exhibits that either aren't open or are empty. The kids all seemed to enjoy it though.
The rest of the weekend was spent generally goofing off. It was nice. Too bad we can't do that every weekend. This weekend we will be participating in Relay for Life - the big fundraiser for the American Cancer Society. We will spend most of the night Friday walking the track at the high school. Needless to say Saturday will be spent resting.